May 9th, birthday gratitude entry:
She walked into a group fitness class that I was teaching. Immediately I sensed that she had a purity, a gentleness about her that is unique. Is it possible to be that sweet, that quietly sensitive? We texted back and forth. She didn’t think she had what it takes for the group class. We decided to meet one-on-one for a bit, see how it goes. That was a couple of years ago… I have been blessed with imbibing of the most delicious vibe ever. Together, she and I have trekked miles and cried tears of joy, pain, revelation, and badassery. She is one in a freaking million, folks.
Seldom have I met someone who flows in such effortless Grace. Like, she falls all over herself to try to understand, forgive, teach, and then share. As the oldest of four girls and a boy, she loves and protects with a fierceness. The adoration for her mother and siblings and all of her family… well, it’s… out of this world. She walks in an integrity that is so damn high vibe! She can unpack a story, with all its pain and twists and turns, and leave you loving every single person involved… who can do this?
Teri. That’s who. Teri.
And don’t even get me started on her cakes. Daaaaayuuuuummmmmmm. I remember the Unicorn Cake she made me for my birthday last year. Major adorbs. And delicious.
She is unassuming, quietly generous, steadfast, and absolutely fucking determined. Encouraging to others, she puts herself on the line to prove to all of us that miracles are possible.
Run a 5k? You got it!
Walk through some difficult memories? I’m on it!
Forgive and stop pondering, just let it flow? Woot, woot!
And – oh my goodness, I love this part – she refuses to play the Victim Card. I know, can you even? I cannot love this girl any more than I do; my heart is overflowing with admiration and real-deal hooplah…. And I get to hang with her every single week. How blessed am I?!
Together, we are meandering down the path LoveYourself. There have been some thorny patches, little bit of uphill, then the downhill (which may sound easier but is actually as precarious), some wonderful wide open spaces, and some sky-gazing. Things are making more sense and, in general, Life is getting lighter, more exciting, more like the adventure it was meant to be all along. I so dig when she gasps, looks at me with those big eyes and rasps, “Are you freaking kidding me? I see it now! I get it!” and then she has this giggle…
She is the complete package. Little kid, full of wonder and believing in the miraculous mysterious, faithful and joy-filled. Imagine a kid on Christmas morning… yet there is a tenacity, a determination. She is all in on the hard work necessary to get the job done. (Have I mentioned yet that I love her so damn much?)
There are only about 17,645 reasons why I adore her but here’s one of the top five: she provides space for me to be me. I think this is what I like the most about Teri. Her willingness to let others be who they are on their journey to remembering their Awesomeness.
One last thing that just shoots me to the moon about her. She is proof positive that GentleKindness and KickassSpitfire CAN exist in one being. Make no mistake. She is a lioness!
My song for Teri is one about FREEDOM. She and I are growing into that delicious space of liberty in which True Power resides… we are realizing that we are Holy Beings, not at the mercy of others who are hurting, but at the mercy of the Grace that lives within us. Forgiveness is for our own self. And it is a healing vibe. True forgiveness, we are finding, holds no more anger. At the end of the work, the end of the path, there is Peace.
And Peace… now THAT is some yummy damn stuff.
Teri Webber Jankowski, I love you.
You. Complete. Me.
Much love & hope,