Day 29

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You cannot experience the fullness of being your authentic self or life when you live to avoid hurt. You will never know the joy of love or the peaceful satisfaction of being loved if you hide from hurt.

Iyanla Vanzant

Today, I will meet with my webmaster… and am considering returning to a site name that I had used a few years back but let go of because I was too nervous about what people thought of me. 

This seems to be an old record that has played for so long in my life. Fear of others’ opinions about me. Wanting so badly to fit it, to belong, to find a family and Tribe which accepts me, celebrates me.

I think it’s in our souls to want to belong… to be among a group of souls who create Safe Space for us to BE, to discover who we are and be that, unapologetically, and to be free to continue to roam around the possibilities of who we are becoming.

All this to say, I think I’ve come to a place of rejoicing in who I am, how I’m wired, what turns me on and jibes with my vibe. It’s okay if others scroll by me or don’t read my blog. This no longer shakes my foundation. I’m standing upon a rock called Love and it’s not moving. 

The site name keeps coming back to me, beckoning me to entertain the idea of returning to using it… and more… even jumping cannonball style into the deep end and coming out as the energies-feeling-freak that I am.

I am ENERGY… and I feel energies. 

I’ve always been able to do this, though I tucked the intuitive part of me under a bushel for fear that others may be offended by me or misunderstand me… or not include me in their club. This fear or rejection kept me from allowing myself to be who I am out loud… and restricted my being curious about who I am becoming as well. This is no longer the case.

I am EnergieGal… and I feel energies.

Tarot reading, astrology, intuitive coaching… all these are like breathing to me. Natural, like an oft worn sweater from Salvation Army, all pilled and pulled but warm and homey. 

It does sound simple to just allow myself to be EnergieGal now… a relief, actually. Just allow myself to sink into the Truth, be embraced and welcomed home. Researching chakras, taking classes on herbalism, talking to the trees, listening to the birds’ messages, reading the energies in a room, a soul, The Collective, the world… Spirit as my BFF, praying, fasting, being still… and believing that hugging might be able to save the world… yes. These are familiar and I thankfully don my suit and prepare to jump into the deep end with both feet, cannonball style. No more fear. No more doubt. Freedom.

I am EnergieGal… and I AM WHO I AM.

No more trying to be something or someone other than EGal. Embrace my quirkiness, my left-of-center ways of seeing things, my daily crying, my desire to live kinda monkishly, my comfort in a space of High Vibration Feelers, vegetarians, dreamers, seers. Allow myself to surrender into Destiny’s arms.

And hope that everyone around me follows me… gives themselves permission to be all in, big leap and knees to the chest into the waters of Authenticity and Vulnerability… because this is where Joy and Peace may be found.

Be your authentic and unapologetic self… Now that’s courage, confidence, and self-love! Never underestimate yourself… There’s great power in simply being YOU. 

Stephanie Lahart

And it is a wonderful, brilliant day indeed. ❤

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