… and palm trees too, please …

Day 36

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Breaking down may sound uncomfortable, yes, but maybe the work of breakthrough begins with the willingness to break down, then break open… such courageous acts indeed.

EnergieGal

In Tampa with Baby Sister. Staying at the house of one of her friends. It’s beautiful, they’re beautiful, we’re having a beautiful time. Lotsa palm trees, sunshine, humidity. The perfect respite for me in the middle of wintertime in upstate New York.

Went for a little run around the block with Sister this morning, lots of great conversation in and amongst the huffing-n-puffing. We house-shopped, pretending to be deep-pocketed and able to afford any house on the shore-lined street.

“If them, then why not me?” I queried aloud to Sister. 

“Totally agree!” she replied.

I’m still allowing God to unpack to me what it means to be POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE. This morning, while sitting out on the veranda under the blue sky and surrounded by palm trees,  I read Wayne Dyer’s The Power of Intention – Learning To Co-create Your World Your Way. The notes I jotted down from the current chapter were thus: 

  • Intention is not about having a strong desire and backing it up with a pit-bull kind of determination.
  • Imagination is the movement of the universal mind within you.
  • Until you transcend the ego, you can do nothing but add to the insanity of the world. That statement should delight you rather than create despair, for it removes the burden from your shoulders. (J. R. Price)
  • Doubts rise because of a lack of surrender. (Ramana Muharshi)

I get this niggling feeling that it is less about circumstances stopping me from living the life I dream of and more about ME that’s stopping me. I think I may be the one in my way. I may be the one plugging up the flow of creativity and manifestation.

And, if so, how? I don’t really care about why. Mute and a waste of energies to pursue the why’s, in my opinion, and doesn’t change the situation. But the HOW? Now there’s something I can wrap my soul around and embrace. And so I ask myself…

At what frequency am I living?

  • Survival mode due to trauma?
  • Eek-barely-by due to mind paradigms of lack and scarcity and victimology?
  • Do I have a thought pattern that believes that I have to work really hard in life to get anywhere and that suffering is all a part of the whole shit-show?
  • Is there a part of me that thinks and holds the vibration of never-enough, only-the-lucky-ones get to live out their dreams?

I wonder about all this… because if I am, to at least some degree, sending out a signal, a frequency, and the world around me is merely reflecting this signal, responding to my frequency and thus manifesting my reality around me… maybe, rather than pushing harder to make something happen, it would be more beneficial for me to consider my vibration, to take into account how I’m thinking, feeling, believing. And to welcome even the unconscious thought patterns to reveal themselves.

I mean, sure, there’s work involved. But maybe the work is less “trying to make something happen” and more “working with and through and out to the other side of trauma, paradigms, deeply ingrained perceptions, judgments, and lack of gratitude.”

I truly think that we in 2022 are breaking down to break open and break through… and I’m not sure if this will land me a house here in Tampa… but I am willing to be courageous, willing to be curious about how creativity and manifestation work in tandem to form our reality.

I allow all ways of thinking and believing that gets in the way of my powerful-beyond-measure-self to show themselves, give message as need be, and dissolve from my physiology and energetic space. I give myself permission to believe that I am worthy of a house, perhaps right here in Florida.

And, God, lots of palm trees too, to go with the house. Please and thank you. 🙂

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Light

Day 35

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Sometimes intuition feels like venturing down a long hallway in the dark, feeling along the walls, and inching one foot in front of the other. And just keeping on in faith that you’re being led towards the Light.

EnergieGal

I’ve successfully created my third website this past month. Within them, I’ve even created an on-line store. I’ve learned how to use my phone apps for checking my bank balance, learned how to create Facebook pages, and am learning how to edit and upload my own videos to YouTube.

I’ve created my own podcast – this was probably the toughest part of this big and wild venture called “I just want to put myself out there and offer my Love and services to The Collective” – and am currently editing the second episode. 

It’s been a roller coaster! But through it all, I’ve maintained a steady faith that I’m being led by God, by Love, by Source that put this desire into my belly… and is helping me make it manifest. When things got confusing or overwhelming, I would take a deep breath and gently remind myself that God wouldn’t bring me this far to let me fail. 

Fall, maybe. But not FAIL.

Fumble around in the dark a bit, sure. But not FAIL.

I have found that the most crucial ingredient during this experience has not been a superb knowledge of computers – because I don’t have that, though I’ve learned so damn much! – nor helpful connections – because I haven’t asked for too much help, though I’ve had some generous offers – nor sleepless nights full of angst and effort and research – I’ve slept well, thank you.

Not money. Not understanding. Not a team of experts.

(Though, had I money, understanding, or a team, I’d have shoved these tasks off my plate and gladly allowed others to create, manage, and complete them. It was hard!) :-/

The main ingredient that has led me through to the other side of this shindig has been… my attitude. Never once did I lose trust in myself, in my dream, in my ability to get the job done, in my calling by God to do this. Never once did I lose faith in God to get me from here to there. 

Discouragement never came knocking. If perchance it did, I wasn’t around to open the door. 🙂

I may have inched my way down the hall in the dark, in faith, reminding myself of the finish line, the goal, the Light at the end of the Tunnel… but not once did I stop, get frustrated, DOUBT, or sit my ass down on the corner of Victim and Shitty-Attitude Avenues.

This has been a journey for me as victimology has been knit into the fibers of my skin, down into the marrow of the bone. No more! 🙂

And, perhaps, part of this journey to create sites and pour myself out there into the world has been less helping others and more transmuting my own energies, from victim paradigm to victor mentality… inevitably so that I can hold frequency and offer guidance like the powerful Light I AM.

Being led towards the Light… less “at the end of the tunnel” and more towards my own Self, my own True Identity, towards the Truth of who I AM, who WE ARE…

Maybe, just maybe, WE are the Light at the end of the Tunnel. Maybe we have been all along… and less should we focus on “there” and more should we remember our power and greatness right frickin’ here. Inside. 

Inside each and every one of us.

Light. Me. Light. You.

Yes, we are. Amen.

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YES

Day 34

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He was handsome, but way more attractive than that… he was kind.

EnergieGal

I lost his ring. Husband took off his wedding ring years ago since he wasn’t allowed to wear it at work. He lost it once, years ago, in a store… found it hours later, tucked way under the bottom shelf in the shampoo aisle. 

But I lost it today. And it is gone, gone. I’ve looked everywhere… and, on a day when I have been everywhere – WalMart, the office, the banks, TJMaxx, yoga, and various parking lots and sidewalks… full of snow and slush… oh, and at TJ’s, I was in the third dressing room. The jeans didn’t fit right and I didn’t buy them… but they may have Husband’s ring in the left pocket. 😦

Or maybe not. Who knows? 

“Hon, I lost your ring. I wore it today on my middle finger, like I do sometimes, and, well, it’s gone. It will be nearly impossible to find it. I am so sorry. And sad.”

Husband rarely angers, and even when he does, he’s quick to control it. I think it’s a combination of his maturity due to experience – he was a manager of hundreds of workers at the factory for nearly thirty years and we have Five Beautiful Souls we call our children – and sensitivity – both his and mine. We’re both sensitive. He would say I’m way more easily hurt, and there’s probably truth to this, but I am careful not to hurt his heart. It’s pretty darn tender, whether he’ll admit to it or not.

Looks have never been much of a factor in my attraction to Husband – though, don’t get me wrong, the dude is handsome. It has been his kindness all these years that has kept me beside him, thankful to have said YES.

He is handsome. But more than that… he’s kind. And this has made all the difference.

Ring, or no ring, I would say YES all over again.

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Peace, As Easy As….

Day 33

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The narrative that you’ve created in your mind is the reality that you are living.

EnergieGal

It seems so simple, doesn’t it? Change your mind, change your world. But is it? Is it that simple to alter your reality just by changing your thoughts?

Well, yes. And no.

Yes… there is an energetic law-of-attraction truth that how you think causes a frequency which then attracts like frequency and manifests this in your reality. So… yes, it is as simple as changing your mind.

And no… because simply changing your mind is not as simple as changing words. A change of mind is born from a change of heart. And changing your heart, now that’s a wee more challenging. Not impossible, but usually begs patience, assistance, honesty, forgiveness, accountability, and persistence. Absolutely possible, but often requires holistic practices such as mindful breathwork, tree bathing, epsom salt baths, journaling, story-telling, feeling your feelings, drinking lots of water, fasting from certain foods or activities or people for a time.

So, yes. And no.

Yes, to change your reality, change your mind. Unlearn patterns of thinking. Relearn new patterns of thinking.

And no, because changing your reality is a process. And for this, you’ll do well to have plenty of these three things on hand, in heart:

  • Curiosity
  • Compassion
  • Courage

But, if you’re feeling the niggles to change your world, if you’re reading this and it’s piqued your interest, then you’re ready. Ready to begin.

I’d be happy to help you on our journey. 

You deserve to be in a reality of Peace. It’s yours for the creating. When do you want to get started?

Peace… let’s talk about it.

xxx

What If?

Day 32

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To live is to be slowly born.

EnergieGal

I know, I know… I used to wish the process of Becoming were quicker too. Alas, it lasts a lifetime. Truth be known, we transform over lifetimes.

What if our transformation – our Becoming – our unlearning and relearning – is not the goal? What if the goal is to experience transforming, Becoming, unlearning, relearning? What if the destination is the journey?

How would this influence our perspective when it comes to changing things we don’t like about ourselves or others, or trying to make something happen, or trying to succeed at this thing called “spiritual soul growth”?

What if we ALL get to where we’re headed – outside of time, since it’s an illusion – and we’re also “there” and so…. BE. Be. Here. Now. Be wide-eyed and open-hearted, open-armed and without expectation. Just BE. Experience. This. Moment.

What if SURRENDER is the so much a part of our Becoming?! Check out this 5-minute video I created around this perspective… FREEING! Empowering! LIFE!

What if this life is not meant to be full of pressure and goals and deadlines and gotta’s and shoulda’s? What if somehow we’ve forgotten that we’re here to BE magical, to experience the MYSTERY, and welcome the MIRACULOUS?

What if, indeed… ❤

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What Fear Feels Like To Me

Day 31

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Being courageous feels a lot like being scared.

EnergieGal

I’m beginning to realize that being courageous feels a lot like feeling scared. If I’d known this earlier in my life, I may not have fought so hard against Fear. I’d have welcomed it into my life as a guest and asked it in for tea and a chat. 

Lately, in allowing Fear to be a messenger, I’ve been curious about where I feel Fear in my body, what I hear Fear speaking in my mind, what conclusions I’m forming from what I’m feeling, and the energies I’m tapping into and what energies are trying to move, dissolve, make room for more Love.

Empowered Living: I wanted to start my own business but found myself super scared. When I listened to the thoughts in my head, I heard, “You’re not good enough…” and when I allowed myself to feel the energies in my body, I sensed constriction, a pulling back and in, a stop of the flow of breath. I felt like I needed to hide myself, protect myself from ridicule. I took an epsom salt bath in chamomile and lit a few candles. I allowed myself to feel Fear (hide! protect! hold breath!) and held myself with a deep compassionate regard. I reminded myself, “you’ve had things happen that have laid a foundation for you to feel afraid to expose yourself… it’s hurt in the past to show up… but it doesn’t have to be this way anymore. You’re safe. You’re loved. You’re honored.” I was still kind of afraid-feeling, but also could feel the courage well up within me as well. My business is thriving. 🙂

How about you? Ever feel afraid? Unpack the details. Were you able to be brave too? Here’s a reminder to take a bath, sit among the trees, journal gratitude, and practice mindful breathing.

I’m here to guide and encourage you, Dear One.

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VICTORIOUS

Day 30

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Never give up on something you can’t go a day without thinking about.

Winston Churchill

Creating a podcast. Creating a journal series. Branding my site. Deep diving into my intuitive gifts. Opening an office. Creating an on-line presence.

These are things I’ve obsessed about over the past few years. Lately, my passion has reached an all-time high and I barely sleep at night for being so darn excited about these opportunities!

Believe you can and you’re halfway there.

Theodore Roosevelt

In the past week, as I ponder the upcoming deadlines (that I’ve laid upon myself but that I know feel grounded and good about), and the various snafus that are bound to happen… the old me, the fearful, insecure me who was tossed to and fro so easily by outside circumstances… that old me who thought that, ‘after all this effort and dreaming and hoping, nothing will actually ever come of it because I don’t get things I want, that’s just the way life rolls for me’… that old me and all those old ways of thinking… 

ARE NOWHERE TO BE FOUND. 🙂

All I feel is excitement and the FAITH that, while things are tripping a little here and there, just the right soul will show up to help me understand this and that, and just the perfect solution will present itself.

It’s not like I’m trying really hard not to think in the victim mentality of yester-day. It’s truly that the victim thought pattern no longer fucking exists within me. Period. I don’t think that way anymore.

My brain has rerouted, my body healed, my energies recalibrated.

I feel victorious, regardless of the circumstances. Sure, I see the issues… but this has not stopped me from seeing the finish line. I AM A WINNER. I GET WHAT I WANT. 

I am creating the Life I want in this moment. And it includes a podcast, awesome sites, blogs and journals, YouTubes, and an office.

I am the Creator of my Life.

I have been listening, being still, praying, fasting, listening more, serving, sharing… and have heard God’s plan… and am moving INTO it with wide open arms and an even wider-open heart. Hell, yes. I am in, Spirit. All the way. 

I feel so powerful, I could roar! 🙂

I’ve finally gotten out of my own way… and can flow into the Way of God. And not that it’s easy – though sometimes it sure is – or that there aren’t any glitches – because, well, sometimes there are – but I don’t lose sight of my dream, of the Reality I can see waiting to be manifested. I remember who I am as Victorious One, Powerful. Guided, Held, Loved. It’s faith, it’s hope, it’s trust. 

It’s work. But, damn, it’s fun! It’s exciting!

So, snafus and glitches, get outta my way. Because I’ve got a plan, downloaded to me by God, and I’m single-minded and super-focused. Ain’t nothing stopping me. 

It’s good to be back! Thank you, God. ❤

Never give up on yourself. Then you will never give up on others.

Pema Chodron

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Cannonballing

Day 29

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You cannot experience the fullness of being your authentic self or life when you live to avoid hurt. You will never know the joy of love or the peaceful satisfaction of being loved if you hide from hurt.

Iyanla Vanzant

Today, I will meet with my webmaster… and am considering returning to a site name that I had used a few years back but let go of because I was too nervous about what people thought of me. 

This seems to be an old record that has played for so long in my life. Fear of others’ opinions about me. Wanting so badly to fit it, to belong, to find a family and Tribe which accepts me, celebrates me.

I think it’s in our souls to want to belong… to be among a group of souls who create Safe Space for us to BE, to discover who we are and be that, unapologetically, and to be free to continue to roam around the possibilities of who we are becoming.

All this to say, I think I’ve come to a place of rejoicing in who I am, how I’m wired, what turns me on and jibes with my vibe. It’s okay if others scroll by me or don’t read my blog. This no longer shakes my foundation. I’m standing upon a rock called Love and it’s not moving. 

The site name keeps coming back to me, beckoning me to entertain the idea of returning to using it… and more… even jumping cannonball style into the deep end and coming out as the energies-feeling-freak that I am.

I am ENERGY… and I feel energies. 

I’ve always been able to do this, though I tucked the intuitive part of me under a bushel for fear that others may be offended by me or misunderstand me… or not include me in their club. This fear or rejection kept me from allowing myself to be who I am out loud… and restricted my being curious about who I am becoming as well. This is no longer the case.

I am EnergieGal… and I feel energies.

Tarot reading, astrology, intuitive coaching… all these are like breathing to me. Natural, like an oft worn sweater from Salvation Army, all pilled and pulled but warm and homey. 

It does sound simple to just allow myself to be EnergieGal now… a relief, actually. Just allow myself to sink into the Truth, be embraced and welcomed home. Researching chakras, taking classes on herbalism, talking to the trees, listening to the birds’ messages, reading the energies in a room, a soul, The Collective, the world… Spirit as my BFF, praying, fasting, being still… and believing that hugging might be able to save the world… yes. These are familiar and I thankfully don my suit and prepare to jump into the deep end with both feet, cannonball style. No more fear. No more doubt. Freedom.

I am EnergieGal… and I AM WHO I AM.

No more trying to be something or someone other than EGal. Embrace my quirkiness, my left-of-center ways of seeing things, my daily crying, my desire to live kinda monkishly, my comfort in a space of High Vibration Feelers, vegetarians, dreamers, seers. Allow myself to surrender into Destiny’s arms.

And hope that everyone around me follows me… gives themselves permission to be all in, big leap and knees to the chest into the waters of Authenticity and Vulnerability… because this is where Joy and Peace may be found.

Be your authentic and unapologetic self… Now that’s courage, confidence, and self-love! Never underestimate yourself… There’s great power in simply being YOU. 

Stephanie Lahart

And it is a wonderful, brilliant day indeed. ❤

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RISKING

Day 28

If you risk nothing, then you risk everything.

Geena Davis

Scared shitless. But going for it anyway.

These past few days, I’ve been doing things that are out of my comfort zone… a bunch of talented musicians asked me to audition as lead female singer and accompanying keyboardist. While I was excited-thrilled-nervous, I was also scared. 

I showed up. I showed up full of nerves and uncertainty. I gave it my all. I had a blast trying my best and was proud of my efforts. I used to sing into my hairbrush as a teen – okay, well into my 50’s too – and pretend I was Pat Benatar… so I couldn’t NOT at least give it a “check, check, one-two-one-two” into the mic. 

We don’t have a name yet, but I have been welcomed as the lead singer in our newly formed band. 🙂

Like, oh-my-goodness, yesssssss!

Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the things you did.

Mark Twain

I am so thankful that I chose to show up, even afraid. Courage feels like trembling and shaking. Brave feels like a queasy tummy. Bold looks like sweating and sounds like “what do I think I’m doing?” Victory is not just I WON but also I showed up, I wasn’t so sure, I sang my guts out, and I left it all out there… Triumph has a flavor of vulnerability to it, for sure.

Be brave enough to bet on yourself.

Sophia Joan

Dreaming is good. But I want more than just to dream. I want to experience my dreams… and this means not knowing how things are going to unpack, if I’m going to flop up, if I’m going to make a fool of myself. 

As soon as you become afraid to make a fool of yourself, you’re in trouble. I decided I may as well just see if I can live with myself making millions of mistakes and learn something from it.

Gelsey Kirkland

I would rather try and fail than never to have tried. Failing means I got out there, I had some kind of faith, I thought myself worthy of dreaming and then experiencing, and maybe it didn’t work out and maybe I’m a fool… but I’m a fool with a story of risking because of curiosity and courage.

If you don’t risk anything, you risk even more.

Erika Jong

Now… what to name the band… 🙂

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Fireworks!

Day 27

A bird sitting on a tree is not afraid of the branch breaking, because its trust is not on the branch but in its own wings. Always believe in yourself.

Over the past few days, I’ve heard “stop doubting yourself” and “no more doubt” regarding believing my gut feels, that intuitive knowing within me. I’ve heard these words and sentiments from family, friends, overheard conversation bits while in line at the store, and via book snippets.

So many confirmations. 

I was going to start waxing on and on about how I lost trust in myself, in that inner voice that whispers, in how my guts speak. But who the fuck cares how? The fact remains, I lost it or gave it away or it was stolen or… the vital point now is that I want it back. I want to start believing in myself again. In my abilities to hear, to know, to feel, to sense. That intuitive “I get this” that is better than any other feeling in my world.

I am not like much of the world. I am different. I am me. Empathic tarot-reading astrologer who reads energies and chakras and loves poetry and music lyrics and hugging. I have hidden myself under a bushel for fear of offending people with my eccentricities, my odd ponderings, my intensity. And it’s been exhausting. 

I would not recommend “hiding yourself” to anyone. Be you. Find out who that is and be all in. You may be rejected by some, not accepted by others… but at least you will belong to yourself.

More and more… I belong to myself. I’m very proud of that. I am very concerned with how I look at Maya. I like Maya very much.

Maya Angelou

Trusting myself, believing in myself… erases all victimhood. I know who I AM. I am Victorious One. I am Triumphant One. I am who I am. All in and full throttle ahead. I am Freedom. I am Other. I am All. I am One.

I am looking in the mirror and there is no reflection… This was the start of a poem I wrote years ago. But no longer do I see nothing. No longer am I invisible. I see me. 

I see me. I acknowledge me. I approve of me.

The world is under no obligation to see me, acknowledge me, or approve of me. I give others permission to pass me right by, to be disgusted by me, to feel apathetic towards me, to misunderstand me, to want nothing to do with me, to disagree with me… for I am not looking to the world for anything.

I belong nowhere. I belong everywhere.

Maya Angelou, paraphrased

I belong. I am allowed to be here. For all my life, I’ve apologized – for breathing, for taking up space, for existing, for having opinions, for being weird or sensitive or impulsive or persistent. For laughing too loudly, for crying every single day, for losing my temper, for not losing my temper, for being an obligation, for calling out shit, for covering up shit. No more doubt. I belong. I am allowed to be here. To take up space and oxygen, to have an opinion which others question, for having deep-wide-high emotions, for wanting to save money and spend it at the same time, for being an enigma and simple too, for loving the worst of people and giving them yet another chance, for walking away from some of the best while wishing them joy, for believing there’s God and Love and Light and Hope and that the stars and trees speak to me.

And so, this morning, I am thankful. Grateful to have remembered that I have the right to be here too. And maybe I’m a lot of work… but I’m also a lot of Love. And I’m loyal, trustworthy, and insightful. I listen well. I hold safe space well. I seek to see the God in each One.

No one belongs here more than you.

Brene Brown

Yes, I belong here. Maybe not even though all these things, or in spite of, but BECAUSE OF. Maybe it’s my kind of quirky vibe that’s exactly what the world needs right now. Maybe, just maybe, Mother Earth and Abba and Christ Consciousness all rejoice in me. Could it be that even the angels are dancing around the throne in my honor?

That I would be good, even if I did nothing.

Alanis Morissette

Today, I am feeling the chains of fear dissolve. I feel lighter, happier, freer. I feel my energies swirling within me, twirling and zapping around like fireworks. I am good. I am good. I am good. Sans trying. Sans striving. Sans masking. Indeed, I am good.

And, ohhhh, I am joyful! And feeling more in True Love with Others than ever! This revelation of my belonging – of my right to take up space and to believe in myself and trust my intuitive gifts – has made me less weary of the world, less worried about belonging, less manipulative… I am free to be vulnerable, authentically me, genuine, and generous. We are FREE! We are Love! We are Loved! We are ONE!

When you trust in yourself, you are trusting in the same wisdom that created you. When you fail to trust in yourself, when you fail to love yourself, you are denying your own Divinity, and therefore attracting the opposite of what The Source is.

Dr. Wayne Dyer

More and more… I belong to myself. I’m very proud of that. I’m very concerned with how I look at Lisa. I like Lisa very much.

It’s a brilliant, fireworks-y day already! ❤

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